My Excogitation

--Spoiler alert: Foul language used-- Relatives, yeah these are the people who have been with me during my white and black times. I was not this black when I was born, for the matter of fact I was rather way too white. I used to play a lot of outdoor games in my childhood and always loved the sun. So got these sun-burns and back then i didn't wanted to wear get kinda facial creams or treatments. So I turned this black. According to me, I think facial care are for a female; well many of you would second that. I think a man should be as natural as possible. My parents, my sister and my cousins are with me for what I am now. They don't care whether I am black or white or big or small, coz they know that it is what I want to be and that's the reason I am. Its these elder who are a pain in the ass. In the name of advice every single time they meet they make fucking racist comments against me. Yes I am the only black person in the family and yes its my own wish that I became li...

Music is an art which uses the medium of sound to portray. Music for me is life now, without which I dunno how to survive. Yes I am not joking if I am alone or when I am not speaking with people or myself, I listen to music. That's like for some 12~15 hours per day. This addiction also started after I started my engineering, before that all I knew about music was those regional film songs which used to come on television. I was only aware of a very very few english songs, one of the first ones were "Queen - We will rock you ". These were played in most of the school events, that's the only reason I knew them. Then during the year of 2004~2005, I got my computer. This was the spark which began to fill the music in every single cell of my brain. At the end of 2007, I brought a Mp3 player. Still remember that I paid to one of the Internet browsing center just to fill up songs in my Mp3 player as I was in Mysore away from home, with no access to my comp. From this poi...

For all those who know me, you would be aware that computer has been the most important part of my current life. I have been into computer thingy so much that it feels as if I have been using it from a very long time. But the truth is that I started it late, very late. When I was in school, computer for me was just three boxes in the books; which consisted of input, processing unit and an output. I did not even know what different kinds of i/p and o/p were there, coz at that time I had no interest in them. Even during my computer classes I was just going to play the game space commander, but I hated them coz I sucked at it. I actually had no much idea about computer till I got my very own. Still remember the day I got the cheque from my dad for buying the computer, I had lot of mixed emotions coz that was day my grandpa had expired; had no idea what emotion to show. The comp came after some days, playing demo games and listening to music was the things that I did at start, coz I didn...

Yes I am slave of the seven deadly sins, but Greed is the one I am most scared of . Excess is the main thing in most of the seven. And greed is basically the sickest of them all. Greed is nothing but wanting to have more, but it is rather generalized as very excessive or rapacious desire and pursuit of wealth, status, and power. I think "Greedy can even make the dead, needy". I started studying back again, tried the MS thing. I was greedy and was envy; that was the only reason I started off. Even my Mom wanted me to have a double degree (Greed again). I knew that studying is not my cup of cake, knowing this I jumped into it; all because of the greed. Now I realized I couldn't do it and here I am with a huge monetary loss. I have myself witnessed more and more people being consumer by greed. A person that I know wanted to live free spirited but then changed into a workaholic just because of greed. Also I have seen a friend of mine just toying with many job offers that...

Lie to me is not just plain untruth words expressed as truth, it is more of a skillful art. There are a lot to types of lies, but I do consider only two of the following divisions. One is the planned and other is the sudden one (unplanned). As many people say that the art of lying is in the details. Yes the details are the most important for lying. For the planned lies, the lie has to be realistic and in detailed. On the contrary for the sudden one, the details has to be minimum as one might forget the finest detail. Memory is also as important as anything else. Since I am person with low on memory. I always have this one big concern wheneva I lie. But one can evade this disability by actually making a lie so real that even the truth would seem like a lie to everyone else and then live that lie. The inhabitants of a lie should be as less living as possible. A lie should not include any being which basically can speak. You cannot trust others to maintain you lie, so it is to be o...

It was 7th Jan 2011. I woke up and without me being fully awake, as usual, grabbed some clothes from my closet and came to office wearing them. My friend Shyam and Akshatha joined for breakfast. At that time Akshatha asked why in this world was me and Shyam were wearing the same kind clothes. I explained to her that there was nothin' else goin' on and it was just a mere coincidence. I was sitting at my cube and it felt as if I was in a mirror maze, everywhere I turned all I could see was people (most were men) with black tee and a light blue jeans. For a person who hates uniforms this was a hell which was unimaginable and that too with uniform. Later the day during lunch saw an awful lot of people with the same attire, that's when I realized that it was not just a hell but felt like I was in some gay costume party. I kept on feeling bad after seeing more and more people (only men) with the same kinda attire. That's when I put my jacket on even in scorching heat just...

My Brain's Rhyme will be the site where in I will put my poem and from now on My Excogitation will not hold my poems. So for all those who wanna read my poems please visit My Brian's Rhyme . Also I wanted to try wordpress blogs so started it.. :) My Brain's Rhyme -  http://sunilsairam.wordpress.com/