My Excogitation

This is again a post about one of my relatives. I have seen them being control-freak from past 5 to 6 years. Lately their controlling has become even more worse as to annoy everyone around them. Though if I say to them in their face they wont agree. But the fact about these control-freak people is that everyone other than them will know that they are controlling things. Dealing with people who are control freaks itself is tough enough. But what if they are parents? I dunno how that kid feels being bullied around, but I really felt bad for him. And so some day if they (parent or kid) read this and understand their mistakes, yeah that serves the purpose of this post. Here I would be stating a few instances where in the parent controlled their kid, just because they felt like. Once I had gone shopping with them and there the kid liked a shirt so much that he wore it and I could see the happiness and all of a sudden from nowhere the Mom came and ordered him to take it off, I couldn...

Confidence is not a simple state of being certain about things. For a man with so much overconfidence, its really a big thing. Sometimes this confidence makes others feel that I am arrogant to them, as they think I have an unmerited confidence. For most of common people confidence levels are like stagnant water where in the level is at the perfect self-confidence. Where as for me the levels of confidence are like tides, most of the times this confidence of mine are on high tides. It rides so high that even the word overconfidence is not the exact thing to describe my level. Last week I stepped into my first ever professional-life-confidence slump. It was the first time I was on a low tide in my profession. Never before I had doubts about my ability to manage things at the office. It put me in a state that I doubted every single one of my decisions. I was even scared to take up more responsibilities. It took me a week to realize the root cause of this issue. One of the two main reaso...

A friday which is worth remembering for my entire lifetime. "Manchester United, Family and Friends"; yes this is the order of preference in my life and I am proud about it. For the first time I got a chance to sit and eat at the Manchester United Restaurant Bar in Bangalore. It was my dream to be at a place where I could feel the devil getting in my body. It was as if I was the Red Devil myself. Stepping inside itself was enough to give me goosebumps. As I walked through the place, my body froze near ever one of he walls which had MUFC Pics. We sat and I got the Menu Card. For the first time I read every single name in the menu. The names were all related to MUFC. The food was really amazing. Filling up our tummies, it was time for the camera shots. Though I did not get pics next to real people, but standing next to those wallpapers itself felt as if I was standing next to them. My dream came true; all thanks to Shyam for the treat and Deepak for the ride... :) One thing ...

--Spoiler alert: Foul language used-- Relatives, yeah these are the people who have been with me during my white and black times. I was not this black when I was born, for the matter of fact I was rather way too white. I used to play a lot of outdoor games in my childhood and always loved the sun. So got these sun-burns and back then i didn't wanted to wear get kinda facial creams or treatments. So I turned this black. According to me, I think facial care are for a female; well many of you would second that. I think a man should be as natural as possible. My parents, my sister and my cousins are with me for what I am now. They don't care whether I am black or white or big or small, coz they know that it is what I want to be and that's the reason I am. Its these elder who are a pain in the ass. In the name of advice every single time they meet they make fucking racist comments against me. Yes I am the only black person in the family and yes its my own wish that I became li...

Music is an art which uses the medium of sound to portray. Music for me is life now, without which I dunno how to survive. Yes I am not joking if I am alone or when I am not speaking with people or myself, I listen to music. That's like for some 12~15 hours per day. This addiction also started after I started my engineering, before that all I knew about music was those regional film songs which used to come on television. I was only aware of a very very few english songs, one of the first ones were "Queen - We will rock you ". These were played in most of the school events, that's the only reason I knew them. Then during the year of 2004~2005, I got my computer. This was the spark which began to fill the music in every single cell of my brain. At the end of 2007, I brought a Mp3 player. Still remember that I paid to one of the Internet browsing center just to fill up songs in my Mp3 player as I was in Mysore away from home, with no access to my comp. From this poi...

For all those who know me, you would be aware that computer has been the most important part of my current life. I have been into computer thingy so much that it feels as if I have been using it from a very long time. But the truth is that I started it late, very late. When I was in school, computer for me was just three boxes in the books; which consisted of input, processing unit and an output. I did not even know what different kinds of i/p and o/p were there, coz at that time I had no interest in them. Even during my computer classes I was just going to play the game space commander, but I hated them coz I sucked at it. I actually had no much idea about computer till I got my very own. Still remember the day I got the cheque from my dad for buying the computer, I had lot of mixed emotions coz that was day my grandpa had expired; had no idea what emotion to show. The comp came after some days, playing demo games and listening to music was the things that I did at start, coz I didn...

Yes I am slave of the seven deadly sins, but Greed is the one I am most scared of . Excess is the main thing in most of the seven. And greed is basically the sickest of them all. Greed is nothing but wanting to have more, but it is rather generalized as very excessive or rapacious desire and pursuit of wealth, status, and power. I think "Greedy can even make the dead, needy". I started studying back again, tried the MS thing. I was greedy and was envy; that was the only reason I started off. Even my Mom wanted me to have a double degree (Greed again). I knew that studying is not my cup of cake, knowing this I jumped into it; all because of the greed. Now I realized I couldn't do it and here I am with a huge monetary loss. I have myself witnessed more and more people being consumer by greed. A person that I know wanted to live free spirited but then changed into a workaholic just because of greed. Also I have seen a friend of mine just toying with many job offers that...