My Excogitation

XxxxX is the inner me. Everyone can call him Sunil's Guilt, coz I am so guilty that he came into existence. These days my brain power has grown I guess. My thinking has changed from past few months. I am becoming more and more capable of committing crimes and escape without even being noticed. The petty crimes that I committed, the people I used (my family, friends and even strangers) for just my own good, the life that I have messed, evil thoughts, etc., Lots of these things have become so huge that it has given the birth of XxxxX. My wants have grown so much that it needs everything and is ready to use any possible thing to attain it. The only one who can stop me is XxxxX. I am introducing him so that even if I forget him, you all will be there to remind me of his existence. As Albert Camus (French Novelist, Essayist and Playwright, 1957 Nobel Prize for Literature, 1913-1960) said "A guilty conscience needs to confess. A work of art is a confession." He is the result of...

9th july 2007, I was just a BE degree holder. Now I am a professional software engineer. It has been 2 years since I was me. It has been more of a survival of the smartest rather than the fittest. The ability to give up yourself is an important survival tool in IT industry. 2 nd anniversary for all those who survived with me since that day. Well today I step into the third in Infosys. Yohohoho, party time...

People have some deadly enemies, whom they could not even think of defeating. Well if you ask me who is my enemy, I would say it is my deadly sleep. I had become an early bird for quite some time now, but from past three weeks me neither an early bird nor a night crawler. All my critics laughed at me when I had this idea of early bird. Now it is their time to have the laugh... :( The wings of my sleep has unfolded and this sleep is now flying high. I am not even able to defeat it. All that I can do is sit and sleep. Giving up is not my type, but this one is too hard to break. I think this sleep has become my nemesis. Wish I had a weapon to defeat it. Anyone, please help me to defeat my sleep !!!

Today I heard a song from the movie "Kulir 100 degree", the name of the song is Manasellam. When I was listening this number the only thing that was there on my mind was him. " Man, where in this holy world are you? how are you? why did you leave? The day you left was the saddest day of my life, I cried the hell out. I really miss you, it has been 12 years that we had seen each other. I don't want to know whether you remember me or not. After your departure I had a lot of friends who were different, but none like you. Sometimes it feels like the word friend has an end. I had not expressed these things when you were with me, please come back at least once before my death. I will never ever in this whole life forget you, BALAJI ... " There are many songs on friendship, but none till this date has made an impact on me like this one. The lyrics of this song is just mind-blowing with a soothing music. Hats off to the lyricist, thanks for giving us a song like th...

The week (7-6-2009 to 13-6-2009) was one of the most weirdest week of my lifetime with respect to my view of a friend. Friend in need is a friend in deed. But this is not the truth, that I realized during the start of this week when my friends ignored me when I was in a deep shit. After this day I had decided that friends are those who remember you only when they r in trouble. This view of friends was changed again during the mid week. I have this friends, whom I have not seen or spoken from past 10 years; all of a sudden in the morning he had called up and had a good half an hour chat with him. He said that he called me coz he remembers me. I was really happy, my hope on my friends were returning back. In the same day, there was another friend who had parted from my life 5 years ago came back. We really had a great chat... :) This week gave me a diff'rent view of my friends .

God is a deity in theistic and deistic religions and other belief systems, representing either the sole deity in monotheism, or a principal deity in polytheism. It is most often conceived of as the supernatural creator and overseer of the universe. Ghost has been defined as the disembodied spirit or soul of a deceased person, although in popular usage the term refers only to the apparition of such a person. Often described as insubstantial and partly transparent, ghosts are reported to haunt particular locations or people that they were associated with in life or at time of death. Recently this concept of God n Ghost is all over my mind. There are some people who believe in both, some neither one and final category are those who believe in only one of them but deny the existence of the other. The law of the nature is that for every positive thing there will be a negative one. This is 100% true, coz without the negative one the positive will never have such importance. For example con...

A human sleep has 3 high levels. The Level 1 of sleep is the longest period of ones sleep, Level 2 is the shortest one and Level 3 is the last part of one's sleep. LEVEL 1 of a human's sleep cover up to 60% approx from the start of the sleep. This potion is where most of the people who sleep less wake up. One who wakes up during this period is fully conscious about his positioning. During this period the conscious mind is still active, but at a lower efficiency. The whole body is just taking rest, with the mind controlling it. LEVEL 2 of a human's sleep is when one's conscious mind starts to lose its control over the body, the when the sub-conscious mind fires up. If a person wakes up during this period, he would feel dizzy with a blur vision and with less hearing capability. LEVEL 3 of a human's sleep is the ultimatum. This level of sleep is the best one and most satisfying. During this period one would have lost control over the body. The conscious mind would n...