My Excogitation

It was in this month 8 years ago I got my first ever tattoo. And after 8 long years I still have the love for the ink, in total I have now four tattoos. I have to thank Veer Hegde for his time and patience in sitting with me for multiple session in designing and take one whole day to complete both of the tattoos. Out of my four I have gotten three of them from him and I would return back to him because of his time and effort in making custom tattoo for me. This tattoo is called ' My Love '. A tattoo that's too dear and near to me. This one has 4 parts in it. Firstly the outer Sun in it represents the family I define. Just like how the Sun forms an integral part of this solar system, this one represents the family in which I am the center of it. Next the year 1878, this is the year my favorite football club Manchester United was founded. Then the time shown 6:35 is when the love of my life Ashu was born. Last but the most important thing in this is the vinyl record...

Picture Courtesy: Pinterest There is always a never ending argument in my head about which is better a pattern or chaos. A monotonous pattern could not surprise you and cause a headache, but this means that there is no learning from it, this also means that you are never in the unknown thus experiencing life in one way till the end. On the other hand chaos means mostly being in the unknown; but this means that you have a headache to solve any issues that arise, this also means that you have the opportunity to learn a lot thus being ready to most of the life challenges that is being thrown at you. When ever I was put in a chaotic scenario in my professional life I would always be mentally fatigued and thus wanting to find a pattern to create a momentary satisfaction and when I do end up in a monotonous schedule in life, I do get bored very quickly and find a little it of chaos to get me excited about stuff. This would not be an argument if I had a substantial impact on this ...

    Picture Courtesy: Flickr In the past 7 years of my professional working career I have worked under some good people, some bad one, some impatient, some calm, some arrogant, some kind, some devoted to the cause, some careless. Most of them says that it is a corporate ladder that we climb over the years. But now I feel its more like a food chain than a ladder. It is more like a mouse evolving into a cat, rather than climbing up the ranks. I have had the privilege to work with a delivery head who would get involved with each person under them (nearly 200) and also have worked with a person who doesn't even greet or smile when there is eye contact. I have seen a lenient leader who couldn't get any good work done by their team and a strict leader who got the best out of people. Upon looking back I have a few people who actually made an impression on me. On the deadline day when you have to give a demo, the process which has to reach from point a to b, gets stuck in be...

This was mine and Vijay's fourth bike trip back in 2012 or 2013, I don't remember the date. We had planned for a one day trip, we decided upon lepakshi and nandi hills.We started around seven in the morning. Not encountering much of a traffic inside the city, we crossed the city in about 40 min.There was a lot of speculation about an uproar in Andhra. Keeping that in mind we drove off past the international airport. Driving on the Bangalore-Hyderabad highway was one of the most enjoying drives that I had while driving outside of Bangalore. The highway doesn't have any speed breakers as such. All along the side are quite a barren land with a lil bit of greenery. The wind is very very heavy, which actually drifts the bike away from a straight line. We reached Lepakshi in the estimated time. The temple in Lepakshi is known for the roof top paintings, whatever is left of them. I was expecting a lot more of visual pleasure of the paintings, but most of them was left in...

Finding inspiration is one of the toughest things these days. People depend on famous people quotes or works to get inspired. There are many talks and sessions conducted just for this cause. In between all these we tend to forget common people acts, with which one can get inspired. Recently I had one inspiration like this. It was a common man like us who inspired me. There is this guy in the housekeeping staff in my office, his action on that day inspired me a lot. Just to give a background on him; he is one of the very friendly housekeeping staff member. He normally enjoys his work, I have never seen him being sad at workplace. Greets many people with a broad smile every day in and day out. One day we had a mobile charger lying in our cubicle. For fun I had put up a post-it (as shown in the picture above). He came to me to ask what was that I had written on both the post-its. After explaining him, I offered him that charger and told him that was for free. He refused to t...

Off late I feel that Hi is not a proper way to greet people. Hello is much more majestic way to give salutation or greet people in English language. On the other hand Hi is more of a casual way of greeting people; and being casual is too mainstream. I know that there is nothing wrong in greeting people with Hi and nothing right about greeting people with Hello. Its just that I feel whenever you greet a person whom you care then greeting them majestically is always better than a casual way. Don't get me wrong here, I am not expecting an hello from everyone. It is just that I don't feel good if I wish Hi to a person whom I care. Greeting with a Hi is like when u know someone but also when you are in a hurry.  While some might argue that Hi implies more personal greeting and Hello more formal way. Hello indicates the politeness in a person and Hi is just an easy, quick and careless way of greeting people. Just imagine your life being narrated by Morgan Freeman, then he g...

At this age of 27, I am currently living my childhood again. I ain't no time traveler, so this is no story about Space-time continuum or any stuff like that. I have this experience of living my childhood again when I play with my niece. My niece is one little being who gets happy for even a small thing, and get angry for no reason at all. My home becomes more festive when she comes. My parents will be running behind to catch her. She walks everywhere; be it on the floor, be it on chocolate, be it on a ball, be it on a keyboard; she just doesn't care. Walking makes her happy and she just walks. When given a paper, or a tissue or anything tear-able; she just tears. Scribbling is one of the most fun things that she does. And she scribbles on many things. I have a few of my walls in my room decorated by her. And that is one of the very few stuffs that makes my room look more lively. Its fun when you watch these kinda cute little things, but you would enjoy it more when you are b...

Picture courtesy: wallbase.cc This is a right fitting post on the day of the 55th Annual Grammys. Music is an art form which knows no boundary. This is one single entity which inspires most of the people in this world and has the potential to inspire nearly every single human. One of the very few reasons I wake up every morning to this insane routine, is that I get to listen to music. It can bring in mental peace in difficult times. It make me control my rage and brings me clear thoughts. Music liberates people from their pain and suffering. When it can do so much for a person like me, it can surely do wonder for normal people. Be it rock, rap, reggae, metal, pop, hip-hop, alternative or any other genre; most of us humans like some or the other form of music. If every single human can be united by music, then there would be no Asians, Americans, British or any regional boundaries. I am a person who promotes world peace, even though being enraged most of the times; I feel the only...

Picture courtesy: deviantART Sad and Anger are two such emotions which never goes along. It just doesn't blend in like others. It make one's brain numb most of the time. I have always see in movies, series and other media that once a person is sad and angry at the same time; anger takes over sadness and that person would act out of rage. But when you experience it, that's not the case.  When one is sadly angry, that person would mostly be silent. If one acts out of anger in this scenario, his/her sadness would not be gone, as what ever happened in the past cannot be corrected totally by the future or present action. So what ever is shown in movies for this kinda mixed emotion is inaccurate. Being sadly angry is difficult for one's brain to handle. If one want to act out in rage one would be too sad to do stuff; but if that person wants to be sadly depressed, his/her anger would not let him/her be depressed. This is the point when silence kicks in and that scum...

Wish all my reader a Very Happy New Year ; and especially wishing it in this new year 2013. Not on December 29th, 30th or 31st of 2012; but on the 1st of January 2013. This is the right way to wish. Most people should make this one thing as a new year's resolution to wish any new year only in the new year. Not on the last day of the last year or in month of December. Its totally absurd to wish people Happy New Year in December; be it at 31st night 23:59 hrs. One doesn't wish a newly born baby for an anniversary, just because in the future it might date some person and might get married. Or one doesn't congratulate a last placed person in a race, just because that person might win races in future. It is just like this if you wish some one a new year when it is still the old goddamn year. The only possible reason to prematurely wishing some one happy new year would be if you vanish into a game and would not be seeing that person in the next year at all. If you even see th...

Of late, I feel that I am the contrarian in most of the debates that I am put into. In most of the discussion there are a majority and there is minority and I now belong to the minority. There is nothing wrong in being the minority, but its gets tough when you are the only one in that minority group and you are up against everyone. Earlier, I used to argue to just get on others nerves and try to figure out how strong people feel about things that they abide by. Now-a-days I am not even a devil's advocate, but I still belong to the minority group. Many a times the debate has gone to the wire and I have got on people's nerves and I have also lost my control. Some people have conviction and are quite persuasive when they argue. I love rhetoric and I aspire to be more and more persuasive. Nothing feels wrong anymore. Every point I put out feels logically correct and perfectly accurate to the situation. Not just at home, even in office I am the only contrarian of the group. W...

On Independence day every normal human being would hoist their flag or sing their anthem or posts something on social network or just sit at home and enjoy the holiday. This is what I normally used to do every year. But this year 15th Aug 2012 was totally different for me. I learned the true value of freedom after being captive. Even though this captivity was for just 10 minutes; it was real hard to spend those minutes. Folks at home had gone out and I was the only one at home. I usually lock the front door from inside and did the same. I went out to the balcony to take a photo of a housefly and wasn't getting a proper angle. The slider door of the balcony was in my way, so pushed it off and took a pic. And this is when it flashed that the slider has gone all the way and got locked. There was no way to open the slider door from outside. The front door was locked from inside and all the keys of all the door were inside. I was totally dumb-struck and was on a balcony with no way...

As the definition goes 'Haters are those people that simply cannot be happy for another person's success'. So rather than being happy they make a point of exposing a flaw in that person or if he turns out flawless, they suffer and get themselves buried in jealousy. Every other proverb says that when you are surrounded by haters it means that you are doing better. But my motive is not to compete with them and prove to them that I am the better person. Here I always perform actions such that they should be jealous. Most of my actions are to make my haters jealous and they should also try to act similarly and then they should fail. Well, stopping it here would mean I am just like anyone else. I want them to fail over and over again and at the end of it all, they should die. It is a point that I make sure that I grow to such an extent that they die out of frustration of their incompetence to win over me. It became more and more evident in the recent past. I have accu...

Falling is a major cause of personal injury. And injuries are nothing new to me. I have had quite a few falls in my life, be it on a cycle, a bike or even on a floor. Till date I have had 6 noticeable falls that I remember off. Two of them on my cycle, two on bike and two when on ground. The first day when I got my cycle I was riding it to my Gramps house and that's where I had my first fall. And then on the way back also I had a itsy-bitsy accident. Both of them was when I was taking a left turn. Then there was the two falls, when I was riding bike, these were also left turn falls. It is a bit weird that I had all of my falls on while making a left turn and also all of them happened when I was riding single.  I did a more in-depth search of my memory bank and it became even more weirder. I fell off twice when I was jumping. I don't remember the exact reason as to why I was jumping in the first place, but I still did and fell off. Both the times I fell, I got real b...

This was one of the most unplanned ride that I have ever been on. It was decided on Saturday 7th April late night. Me and my bro-in-law, Vijay with our bikes Royal Enfield Thunderbird and Royal Enfield Classic started off on 8th April at 7 AM. Though the place was a blissful scenic beauty, the whole plan was to concentrate more on riding our demons. The Royal rides I wanted to reach as high speeds as possible on this trip. From the start itself, the odometer was wavering between 80 and 100 kmph. I was pushing it hardest with my very mediocre bike riding skills. That wasn't actually the case for my bro-in-law. He was a pro, in other words he had the skills to actually even perform stunts. It wasn't something new for him, but on this Classic it was his first trip. He was reaching top speeds without a sweat and also cruised through the traffic. On the way to Mahadevapura, the max that I reached was 110 kmph. It was a dream come true, when I touched 110 for the first time...

These lines are the ones that came to my mind when I really looked at it again. When I looked at shit, it said "Complete your work and then only leave!"... When I looked at shit, it said "Dont be shocked, I am not even 1/100th of you"... When I looked at shit, it said"Its ok; the guy outside would not have heard you"...

I always liked the English language even from school. Even my favorite teacher in school was the English teacher. English for me is more important than even my mother-tongue. Now-a-days all I see is a ruined language, everyone thinks its cool to actually spell the words wrong and capitalize in unwanted places and also they try to add numbers in words. They call this the SMS or the youth language. But those idiots don't understand that they are actually ruining themselves in front of the next generation. If people from the future see all those stupid way of using English; they would surely say that some idiot taught them the language or they would even consider these English-illiterate fools as mentally retarded. Using 'u' in place of you and 'v' in place of we, are to an extent acceptable. But using 'hoe' in place of how and 'hApiE' in place of happy and similar things aren't stupid but its just retarded. See the quote below. Just because y...

Mondays for a software engineer should be sober, dull and mundane. Monday's are the least productive days for me. It is not just that, but I lose interest to even gym on Mondays. Back when I was in school, mondays were the days I hated and would have done any goddam thing to escape a single monday. It was like a slow-start-week-syndrome. And this was the my mondays till last few weeks. Now I just get up every monday feeling so fresh as if I was a veggie that was just taken of the plant. On mondays I don't fear my kryptonite, the Sleep . Sunday night are specially relaxing even though I know that there is a deadly monday coming. I get the best sleep on a sunday night and the brightest and most alert monday wake-ups. Every morning bus rides are sleepy except for those on mondays. The fact that I am writing this post on a monday morning itself proves that I somehow have come to a point in my life where I have stopped to hate mondays. Is this the end of the world for me...

Water drops fell from the sky like gems on this earth, which is so dry. Looked up and saw the black clouds in swell and the mud filing the air with a vibrant smell. Wish this could go on for ever allowing the heat to come up, never. Making all those dull trees green hiding the sun which grew so mean. Rain rain please don’t go away and don’t let the sun take over another day…

I always do stuffs without drikin, my brain keeps on over thinkin. Wheneva I wanted to say it to you, something in my mind would stop from goin through. I love you more than I love myself, coz this heart has given up itself. I just can’t be lovin you no more, I have to stop these thoughts in a war. So many times I tried, but all for nothing coz I’m afraid. Just for the love to you baby, so long, I am driven this crazy. The thing I am trying to forget is all true, coz its the one side love to you. I just.. I cant.. I just can’t be lovin you no more, but I cant give this thing up and swim to the shore. This poem was inspired by a song from Diddy Dirty Money [Loving You No More ft. Drake]